So is it linear or like a big mountain range? I would love to believe the mountain range theory. What happens to me now has happened to me in the past and will happen to me in the future. What is now is also then and also future. In some ways I know it's true: the things I do now obviously affect me now. They affect the past because they change my perception of the past and therefore, the facts in the past change.
(This brings to mind a conversation I had with Mark about fact and truth versus perspective. I would like to argue that fact is simply collective perspective, but Mark argued that fact was the essence of what happened- what "really" happened. Who can say what "really" happened? Matrix style debate: it's all verified by our senses, and they've fooled us before, right? It gets tricky with all these semantics. For this particular entry I will use the following definitions for my terminology:
truth: essence, level one- the highest tier. the essence of the chair (anyone notice where I'm getting this yet?)
fact: collective perspective- it's only fact because many people say it's so (we all say, there's the chair)
perspective: one view (I say, the chair is to my left))
Secondly, since the facts of the past change, then the present changes, because as we all know, the present is a product of our past. So. The future is the past is the present, or is at least affected by all of those things. Okay, so if the things I do now are important to my life, should I not be able to plan them better? Or conversely, enjoy them better? Why is it a constant struggle with the plan versus the moment? The present versus the future? I'm going to start living in the past instead, it's warm and I already know the pain involved. I'll just reside there.
But the mountain range theory is wrong, anyway. If we aren't linear then we make no sense. I'm a big fan of learning from my past, taking what I know and trying to mold it, shape it, pancake it into some type of record for my soundtrack. If I couldn't cement that in some way, my soundtrack would be... warped? No, that's not right either. I can replay one night in my head thirteen times a day and get a different song for it each time. The mountain range has to be right.
HA! I didn't use the definitions at all. That's great.
